The First Day of School

My little Hannah started Kindergarten today.  I can't believe she is going to be gone all day long everyday. :(  This is hard for me because she and I could hang out and she would go with the flow of whatever we were doing that day.  Jessica on the other hand was so ready for Kindergarten that it was not as hard to let her go.  Hannah had a half day for the first day but starting tomorrow she will go all day.  I asked her what she learned she told me "I don't want to tell you."  Then she finally said that she was going to have homework and frowned  I said "do you want homework"  she said "no."  I was helping her fill out her lunch calender ask her if she wanted to have hot lunch or cold lunch (sack lunch from home).  She said she wanted cold the first day.  I talked her into having hot lunch everyday this month since she really didn't know the difference.  She said to me "what if it's too hot."  She cracks me up.  So all in all her first day was good.


Jessica started 3rd grade today.  I can't believe she is in 3rd grade already either.  Her teacher is new to Resurrection this year.  She is very strict and runs a tight ship.  Which I think Jessica and I are both going to have to get use to.  I get having she needs to have control in the classroom   Mike and I are not real strict on our kids.  I would say we are a happy medium.  We discipline them when they need it but we also let them go crazy fun sometimes too.  They respect and obey others very well. We just don't run our house like Fort Knox.  I had to pick Jessica up for a doctors appointment early today and while we were at the appointment I was asking her how she liked her new teacher and she got this funny look on her face and hesitated and said "she is nice."  I could tell she didn't want to be rude or disrespectful and tell me the truth. I think that is a great that we have taught her to think of others feelings.  Mike and I have taught  our kids respect and also treat them as little humans.  I don't like when kids call me Mrs. Brown because that makes me feel like I am better and above them.  I have had to just go with it though because all the kids at the school are expected to call all the adults by their last name.  I was raised calling my mom and dad's friend by their first name it didn't mean I didn't respect them.   Jessica  told that they lost 5 min of recess their first day of school because some kids where talking.  So this being so strict is either going to take some getting use to or I am going to be one happy mama come May 24th.   I am not at all worried about Jessica's classroom behavior I know we are helping mold her into a thoughtful young lady.

I mentioned that Jessica had a doctors appointment.  I will update you a little on her. This appointment was with her thyroid doctor. She grew and inch and gained a pound in 3 months yay!  He is concerned that she my have something called Turner's syndrome.  I am not sure what that is exactly so I will keep everyone updated on that if she does have it.  I do know it is treated with growth hormone shots.  We will have tested in October.  We had to go up in dose for her thyroid back in May but other then that she is doing great!

One Crazy Night that Makes me laugh now.

This entry is a short one but it is too long for a status update.  Last night Jessica was at a sleepover and when this happens Hannah thinks she needs to sleep in mom and dad's room on the floor.  The storm rolled in and woke Dillon up he came and crawled into bed and when I finally couldn't take him rolling and wiggling anymore I made Mike go get his pillow and blanket and put him on the floor next to Hannah.  OK almost back to sleep when Dillon tells me he has to pee.  I get up to help him pee.  We are settled back into bed almost asleep again then the dog is trying to lay on my head because she has storm anxiety.  Dillon up again to pee.  Settled again and the dog is on my head again.  I try to put her in create get back to bed.  Almost asleep again wake up to Dillon screaming in fear. THE DOG!  Trying to lay on his head this time.  Mike jumps out of bed quicker then I have ever seen him jump since I told him my water broke when Jessica was born.  I told him to put the dog in the closet and shut door. (Mattie would be so pleased the dog got locked in the closet.)  By this time it is 5am now Mike is awake and playing Scrabble on his phone in bed. Finally we are all back to sleep.  Dillon has to pee again!  This time I wake Mike up and have him take Dillon to the bathroom.  Back to sleep for another couple of hours.  I think it is a good day for a nap!!

Needs a Ray of Hope and Prayers

Well some of you may already know that I am expecting our 4th baby.  In fact very few of you know because I have been very quite about it because of my history of miscarriage and not letting myself get attached yet.  I finally felt attached to this little peanut last Tuesday when I got to see him/her bouncing around in a sonogram.  It amazes me how much at only 11 weeks it looks like a little baby already.  Well I am 12 weeks, very attached and things look good with the baby but not so good with me carrying to term. Baby's heart rate was 153 and very active.  I went to a new specialist in town and when talking about my preterm labor and history he said he is happy to see women like me get to 32 weeks. And apparently it gets riskier with each surgery I have to have to keep this little one from coming too soon.  I am having "mommy guilt" right now because this was a planned pregnancy and if I don't carry to at least 32 weeks where the baby is viable I will feel like I was being selfish in wanting another kiddo knowing that my body just doesn't work very well for this. My wish to carry a baby to term and leave the hospital a couple of days with the baby in my arms seems to be just a dream.  I am very blessed that even though they come early they are very healthy and happy kids.   Which means this is our last little one. 

I would appreciate prayers light a candle or do whatever it is you do when someone is needing divine intervention.  I know that Gods will, will be done with or without prayers but it never hurts to pray a little.  I was hoping to carry this little one to term but now I want to make it to 32 weeks at least.  I am scheduled for surgery Thursday morning.  It is an outpatient surgery and a day of rest and relaxation but after that I can resume normal light activity.