Trying to not Jump around

I last left off with us not having any air conditioning or a oven that bake properly.  I was think what to post tonight and wanted jump right to the story of Mike and I so I could get to talking about my pride and joy's. My kids, but realized they are a big part of who I am but they are not the only one's who have a part in my life.

I already talked about my parents so now I am going to talk about my brother.  He is 6 years older then me and we got along great.  I called him bubby or bubba up until he was in high school and finally started calling him Corey which was very strange to me.  I didn't want his high school friends to hear me call him bubby.  I remember making tents with fans and sheets.  We called them Air Blow tents and I am going to introduce them to my kids this summer.  Maybe we came up with this because of the lack of air conditioning and it is what kept us cool, we even slept in them.  He would take me everywhere with him.  He still live in our home town and we aren't as close as we use to be and I don't know why. He has 4 boys I will get to them some other time. I still would do anything for him though.   Never thought blogging would make me cry but it has tonight.

Now if anyone would like to give me any advice on this one I would love it.  I have a half sister and a half brother.  My dad was married before he married my mom.  I barley remember them.  There is not a good relationship between them and my dad.  I don't know the story as to why.  I do remember my sister was going to get married and she wanted my dad to walk her down the aisle.  I still remember going to JCPenny's to special order his suit.  Well my dad never walked her down the aisle because her mom was made that she chose my dad instead of her step dad.  My sisters mom thought he had been there more for her then my dad had been.  It hurt my dad so much that we didn't even go to her wedding.  I think I remember something about both of them walking her down the aisle but her mom didn't want that either.  Now here is where I am up for some advice.  I found both of them on facebook about a year ago and they are both "friend"  I have not wrote them because there is some hatred toward my dad with my half brother. I feel that they accepted my friend request in not a bad thing but I am still nervous.   I have nieces and nephews and my kids have  who we have never met.  My brother is out of state but my sister is in the state.  I don't even know where I would start.  I know my brother use to show us his break dancing and teach it to us as well.  I remember my sister always being happy and excited to see us.  I am going to leave it here.  If anyone has some advice to what I should do please tell me.  I know God is not good about telling us exactly what to do. He leads us but leave it us to us to do our free will, well I am going to pray that with this one it hits me like a brick wall but with much less pain.